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O Holy Night!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
God sustained me through round 10 of chemotherapy last month.  10 down and only 2 more to go!!  Round 10 was definitely brutal, but God carried me through each hour and every minute of those long days.

"God, the Lord, is my strength;
     he makes my feet like the deer's;
     he makes me tread on my high places."
-Habakkuk 3:9

This year Christmas was so sweet.  It was simple, but it was purposeful!

Last year... I was physically and emotionally hanging on by a thread.  My surgery was only a few weeks prior to the Christmas season.  My heart was weary.  My body was tired, and I was acutely aware of my prognosis.  To help get into the holiday spirit, I went to Target (because, of course) and looked for new stockings with everyone's initials on them.  I found two "D's" for my husband and my youngest, an "E" for my oldest and then when I went to find an "A" for me; I realized our initials…
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Sweet Moments

As part of this journey, Ashley has been spending some time writing and is wanting to update the blog more frequently.  So, she'll be taking the reigns for the foreseeable posts.

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I had the sweetest moment in my last round of chemotherapy <3

Let's take a minute to pause and reflect on the fact that I have officially completed round NINE!!

It wasn't easy, it wasn't fun, I've got the bruises to prove it... but round nine is done!!

'You are to fear the Lord your God and worship him.  Remain faithful to him and take oaths in his name.  He is your praise and he is your God, who has done for you these great and awe-inspiring works for your eyes have seen.'  -Deut. 10:20-21
David and I are always truthful with our girls about my health.  The baby is sweetly oblivious (as she should be for a 1.5 year old) about my diagnosis.  But, sometimes, when I'm really struggling, I feel this little tiny person come up from behind me and give me a hug.  So, she…

Reflections

There are moments in history that change the course of life.  A year ago today was one of those moments. Realizing that we haven't updated the blog in a while, we thought that this would be a perfect time to jump back into the fray. No doubt that I'll have a pretty lengthy write up soon to recap some of my thoughts, lessons learned, current struggles, recent victories, etc. but I thought it appropriate to ask Ash to give me a write up to commemorate the day (especially given that this time last year, the last thing I ever thought she'd be doing was writing a blog post).  Below is her letter.  Thanks for reading it. I hope you'll take a minute to reflect on your past year and that you'll see how God has worked in and through you and those around you to bring you where you are today. To recap on last year's surgery day post: Go Here (Unexpectedly Expected) Struggles and trials are often presented to us as things we need to avoid or minimize as much as possible, but …

Leaning In

Faith is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted in spite of your changing moods. – C. S. Lewis
Writing this entry has already proven to be a challenge.  It's been a while since the last post and a lot has gone on since then.  To recap all of it would take an enormous amount of time.  The long and short of it all: we've gone through a spider bite infection, a horribly nauseous round of chemo, several rounds of sickness with the kids, plenty of doctor's visits and the ins-and-outs of life in general.  We've also gone through several moments of needed encouragement, tender moments with our girls, recharging moments as husband/wife and a boost of energy provided by the church.  
Putting that quote by C.S. Lewis at the start of this post was intended to serve as a reminder that life stages are not constant, situations and circumstances are always changing... sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse, but ultimately change is an inevitability.…

Resiliency

Wow.  A lot of life has happened in the past month and a half...

DISCLAIMER For This Post: This is the first time I've had to myself in a while (Big thanks to a friend and her mom for hanging with Ashley and watching the girls for the day).  My thoughts are going 90 to nothing with this freedom.  As a result, you are probably going to struggle with how much I'm jumping around.  I just want to get something written down; to unload the past few weeks from my head and to have record of what's going on.  I'm also not proofing this article much before I post it so there will likely be poorly worded sentences and definitely some misspellings. Time is a valuable commodity today...

With all of that said... Here's a quick run down of the major events that have occurred: February 9 : Lab Work / Doctor AppointmentsFebruary 14 - February 18 : 1st Maintenance Chemo TreatmentMarch 2 : Honey Went Back to TexasMarch 14 - March 18 : 2nd Maintenance Chemo TreatmentMarch 14 - March 22 …

A Battle Fought

Our God is the Lion, the Lion of Judah
He's roaring with power and fighting our battles
And every knee will bow before Him...
-Lion and The Lamb
Summary of 09FEB18:
It has been said at times that no news is good news.  I disagree.  I think good news is, in fact, good news and no news is merely the absence of information.  Let's discuss some good news.  Without dragging out the details of the day in this section (which I'll do below for those who want a more in-depth rundown), yesterday was long but good.  Lab work looked decent.  Scans were good (other than one spot/nodule that we'll keep an eye on as we move forward).  I would say that in an ideal world that nodule wouldn't have been there, but it didn't seem to cause any immediate concern from our Neuro-Onc or Radiation-Onc.  In fact, they were pleased with the response to that phase of treatment.  We'll mark yesterday in the win column.  [In my gut, I still have some reservations about that nodule, but for no…

A Calming Storm

Every one has a story to tell. 

Every story is different.  
I'm learning through this journey that the actual story (the details, not the 'idea' or concept) is important.  It's where we eat and sleep.  It's where we struggle and relax.  It's where we yearn and where we forfeit.  The story is where we live.  It's not so much about beginnings or endings.  Sure, the start of a story is crucial (as it is where the characters and story arcs are established) and endings are just as prominent (because the arcs are pulled together and a sense of 'closure' is felt)... but the meat of the story (the actual story) is where life is lived. It's there that we grow, where we change and how we change/gain perspective.

One of the peculiar aspects of brain cancer (and the subsequent surgeries/treatments) is that everything on the outside can seem so normal (aside from a pretty impressive incision/scar) with regards to appearance, physical abilities, et cetera, bu…