Ever Singing For Joy

My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long? Psalm 6:3 Suffering; in a small part.  That's what this stage of life feels like. "Lord please take it away.  I need you more than ever.  Lord, I love you.  God, please save me.  I am weak and faint.  God, you hear my prayer, I know you do.  I'm crying out for mercy." ...recently, my prayers to God have looked something like this. As a Christian, suffering shouldn't be a surprise.  But, I do get surprised.  Maybe a good tattoo would help with remembering to not be surprised :) [I can feel David's scoff from here] These last couple of weeks... they've been extra difficult.  Cancer has been kickin' my tail. I'm hurting in a lot of different ways.  My body just feels broken .  My heart is certainly fragile .  My energy is all but non-existent . Having cancer feels like a full time job, with no vacations or weekends.  Whether it is simple daily tasks, doctors' visits, surgeries (thankfully, not