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The Deep Ache

The calm before the storm . I have heard that phrase countless times before.  I don't know if I've ever experienced that phrase in such a palpable way as I have over the past week. What you'll find in this post is going to be straight to the point, not a lot of analysis or commentary; plenty of time for that later... I promise (I've mentioned a few times in earlier post that writing these posts serves as a bit of therapy for me and I can guarantee that in the coming days there's going to be a need for therapy). Since the last post, Ashley's health has continued its decline.  We've had some stumbles and trips and one significant fall this past Sunday.  Words come and go (heavier emphasis on the 'go').  Weakness in movement is growing more common.  Understanding logic and typical actions are increasingly more difficult. Though, there is a slight feel of maybe slowing the descent of decline in the past 24 hours (meaning, it's been relatively uneven

An Anchored Foundation

This is one of those posts that I've not wanted to put together.  For whatever reason (probably because I like to be as prepared for moments like these) I have several posts waiting in the wings, and I really wanted to be able to grab one of those, numbly assemble, post, and not wrestle with much thought or deliberation; however, when I started working through the one that seemed to be the most relevant I took a step back and realized that a pre-written post really doesn't work as well as I thought it would.   The following post was written today (this morning/afternoon/evening) and is genuinely filled with feelings, reactions, and emotions.  There is also some medical talk, but where I've been heavier in the science in some of my more recent posts; this will serve as more of a 'what's going on', 'where are we now' and 'how is everyone doing' type of a post. If you are really just interested in the day we had yesterday and a brief description of